Day One: "Broke Up"

I went to the cinema with him last night. The first meeting as "just friends" - but I texted him to tell him I still liked him and I don't feel we can be friends right now.

This sucks because I have never felt a connection like the one I have felt with him. He is intelligent, interesting, creative and fun. Truthfully, someone I can see myself with.

I am sick of guys who date me for a couple of months and don't see my worth like my friends do.

His situation is a weird one. I feel like he likes me but he's afraid of commitment. I don't know how his past relationship ended - I just know it ended when he had to move away for work.

There's nothing for me to do except "work on myself" - which I have been all year, it's like a running joke. In his last message, he said "you can still message me" but I hope to not message him until at least Christmas.

How I'm going to work on myself:

1. See PT 2-3 times a week

2. Meal plan and eat better.

3. Take nutrients

4. Skincare

5. Take time out from work

6. No more including him on WhatsApp statuses

7. Address my time spent on TikTok (bloody TikTok tarot readers)

Prompt 1: What do I miss about the relationship?

• The consistent weeknight dates

• The cuddles and kisses

• The conversation (text and IRL)

• Knowing he was there to talk about any situation without judgement

• Being completely myself - something I've not felt in any previous relationships

Affirmations:

I am worthy of love

I am ambitious

I am going to get through this