Day Six: Did I break No Contact?

We are now 6 days into No Contact.

And this week has been tough. It's why I didn't really journal. I've been thinking about him, seeing signs and the TikTok tarots are doing my head in.

And last night, I really missed him and I wanted to know if he had blocked and deleted me. So I posted a WhatsApp status and included him. And he saw it.

I feel a few different ways about this.

Firstly, hooray, he didn't block and delete me.

Secondly, why hasn't he reached out to me then?

Posting that WhatsApp status hasn't helped with the cause. But it's made me feel good that he is still "open". It's the bare minimum in communication though.

And so, we continue.

Prompt 4: How is this break up happening for me?

Although it is a running joke that I have done nothing but work on myself this year, I still need to get used to being on my own. My friends have already seen a change in how I'm handling this entire situation - last year, I would've had a week long anxious break down and not get myself out of bed. This time around, I've made productive moves with moving to a hot desk and seeing my productivity increase straight away. My focus isn't on him (lol, it is, but not really), it's on my own self development. To love myself and to attract somebody who will love me for everything I am.

Affirmations:

I am loving.

I am generous.

I am kind.